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Hello again everyone. Most of you who have been reading this blog know about Maria. Kristen, Alanna and I are doing very well. There are several times during each day where we look back and wish to have her back or times when we are reminded by something we see and we think back to our time in the hospital with her and our parents. But we want you all to know that God is in control. God did not bring death into the world. And God did not take her from us, he gave her a soul and an eternity in heaven. Not a bad deal. If you want to be angry at anyone, be angry at Satan and us. He is the "Great Tempter" and we are the ones who sin and bring death. Jesus Christ brings life and healing.

In many ways I am jealous of our 6 day old daughter because she has an everlasting soul, just like we all do, but she gets heaven without having to face all the hurts and pains that the rest of us do. I have 50 to 70 more years here on earth if I'm lucky. One million years from now, when we are all in heaven with each other and Maria (if we accept the gift of life that Jesus so freely gives to us) these few years on earth will seem a distant memory.

I am sad that she isn't with us now, but I rejoice that God gave us the opportunity to add another soul to His kingdom. One with whom we will share only good times and memories for millions of years.

My readers, know this. The Bible says that we mourn, but not as those who have no hope. Until this ordeal I had no idea what "hope" meant in that passage. Now I have experienced hope. Hope is not a wish, it is confidence. I don't "hope" that Maria is in heaven. I know she is and I know I will see her again. We can't convince or talk ourselves into having this type of confidence, it is a gift from God at the same time as our salvation. If you don't feel this true hope, but you know you have accepted God's gift of heaven through Jesus Christ, you don't have to feel it. It's there, and it will come out when you need it, as it has with me.

I hope this finds you all well.

Jay